outside the lines

Sometimes I feel like I set myself up for failure by talking about the lessons I have learned so far or how I plan to do better.

It seems that as soon as I say something of the sort, life gets busy and I find myself with less time to exercise and less time to plan out my meals. Or maybe it is just that I am hyper aware of everything.

Over the past few days, I've felt like I was failing. A hurt knee coupled with an extremely busy work schedule coupled with lots of time out with my husband and my friends has equaled no exercise and lots of eating.

I chose to do those things. And I chose to eat poorly when we went out as well as to have two beers and a cosmopolitan. I will never place blame for those things on anyone but myself. They were my choices.

Were those choices made because of how determined I was to not fail? I don't really have an answer.

Right now all I know is that this week has been everything I wanted it to be and everything I promised myself it wouldn't be. It was filled with friends, laughter, relaxation and an all around good time. That's what I wanted. But it was also filled with no working out and eating a few too many sweets which is what I promised myself it wouldn't be.

I don't want to dwell on the mistakes or on the week itself. I want to move forward. But I want to learn if I set myself up for disappointment and failure by placing so many wants and demands on myself.

What do you think? Do you think sometimes bringing issues to light makes it/them (whatever it or them may be) harder to overcome?

(title from "unwritten" by natasha bedingfield)