you are you for a reason (and that's a good thing)

I've spent a LOT of time wanting to be like someone else, wanting to be the next "someone." Which means I've spent a LOT of time idolizing other people.

I've wanted to be the next Britney Spears or Jessica Simpson. Embarassing. But when I was in high school, I saw their lives and thought that was what I should strive for. Minus the shaving of the head and losing my mind and going barefoot into a gas station bathroom.

They had rocking bodies. Their clothes were amazing. And... they were (or had at one point) dating/married to two of the most attractive men God has ever made: Nick Lachey and Justin Timberlake. Who wouldn't want to be them?

I've also wanted to be the next Beth Moore. I've longed for the chance to write something that moves people. I've felt like I needed to be a big time author to make a difference.

When I started this blog, I started it with the intention of it blowing up. I decided I wouldn't be like other bloggers. I was going to write beautiful prose and words that moved people. And I was going to make lots of money and quickly.

That didn't happen. Thank God. In fact, my blog kind of bombed big time. By a lot of people's standards, it's still bombing big time. I mean... I don't make any money from it. I do happy dances when I hit 300 page views in a single day. I celebrate every new fan on Facebook and follower on Twitter.

But what I've learned recently is that the world doesn't need another next person. God doesn't want any of us to be the next anything. He wants us to be us and to serve the purposes He has set forth. Genius, right? Why didn't I think of that sooner?

It's been over 2000 years since Jesus walked the earth. 2000 years, people. That's a long time. And with so many years having past, it feels like and seems like everything has already been done. All the great theologians have already lived. We've had Whitney Houston, Etta James, The Beatles. Authors like John Grisham and JK Rowling have made billions of dollars. It's all been done. So it only makes sense to copy what has already been done.

Except God creates everyone to be different. And when people have wanted to be like God, it hasn't gone very well. What God wants is for us to be ourselves, to serve the purpose He has set out for us with our own zany flair.

Standing in the shower on Saturday, now that I'm showering more than once every 10 days (knee surgery is stinky, y'all), this all hit me. I remembered all the different posts I've written. How I've plastered them all over Twitter, Facebook, and Pinterest. I thought about all the different bloggers who have talked about how to make money and grow a following. And while none of that is bad, it's made me lose sight of who I am.

God doesn't want another Beth Moore. The world certainly doesn't need another Britney Spears. And I love my husband more than I ever would have loved Justin Timberlake or Nick Lachey (though I would definitely give them my hand in marriage should I ever be a widow and they were single and following Jesus at the same time).

God wants me to be Leslie Knight. The world needs more authentic people. Your friends need you to be yourself.

It's easy to lose yourself in the world of technology and in a day and age when everyone is trying to emulate something. I've lost myself in it. I'll probably lose myself in it in the future. But then I'll be reminded that I can never be exactly like someone else.

And I'm here to remind you that you can never be exactly like someone else. Thank God.

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  1. I adore this post! Just what I needed to hear going into a race week... I'll be surrounded by slim, fit people who will finish the race twice as fast as me.. & I will feel insuperior & depressed. So I needed to hear this... that MY time is OK & I'M OK ;) thank you for this!

  2. Visiting from Mingle Monday!

    I can totally relate to the whole wanting to be Jessica Simpson & Britney Spears thing. I have ALWAYS compared myself to other people and then got down on myself when I couldn't look like them or whatever. I think I finally gave up and became semi secure with myself because I am too lazy to care anymore. haha!

  3. Having just been fired on Thursday after not being written up once the real reason is they didn't want to pay unemployment....I could of been feeling really crappy but God has something new and He is using me just the way I am today not because I am like someone else, love following you God is using you just the way you are and that brings Him all the glory.
    Comparing is what Satan uses to keep us unhappy with what God has done.

  4. Visiting from Mingle Monday!

    You are so right about not being able to be anyone else. I use to think that at times but then I realized awhile ago that I am who I am and if people don't like it, well then that's their decision :)

  5. WOW - great post! It is a great reminder...being just a newbie and not knowing how to navigate this whole blogger world.

    Hope you have a good week! Happy Monday :)

    Lindsey @ tinyinklings.blogspot.ca

  6. Beautiful post.

    Just like you, I wanted to be the next, too. Especially Britney Spears when she was in her prime. Sometimes I still catch myself with those thoughts (okay, a lot of times), but the more I'm learning to love and appreciate myself, the more I am wanting to be no one else but me.

  7. New follower here! Great post, very well written!

    Thank you for the reminder!

  8. My thoughts exactly :) lol so funny. And you're right I probably will get caught up again in the future, but you know what God's grace and mercy is so abundant. As I start my blog, I want God to examine my heart, my intentions, I want to serve His people not "blow up." well written...



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